As I prepared for church today, I involved my mind and my heart in the quiet conversations of life. I wanted to to seat strategically next to people who didn't know me(that tells you I probably did not attend my local assembly), I wanted to let lose, I wanted to appear before the mercy seat and plead for my life, I wanted to be alone in a world only I knew about, I wanted to tell Him how much I had missed communion with Him, I wanted to let Him know what He meant to me, I just wanted to be the redeemed me!! I got to church 10 minutes into the service, found the worship leader into the first set of songs ( I guessed), but just when I had spotted the perfect seat, the Usher...oh the Usher!!, he gently pointed to a seat next to the aisle.. I adjusted and quickly refocused to what had now build up to a well of expectation!I wanted to take a journey to the Lord uninterrupted. Sitting there I closed my eyes, zoned out to what was happening and begun walking, I had an urgency